天天医院跑

不说不知道，说了自己都吓一跳！

星期一。 我换纱布。

星期二。我和琦看医生。

星期三。我复诊。

星期四。 郑家三宝看医生。

星期六。 将拆纱布。

明天我不要再去任何医院了。。。

感恩

I tried to prepare simple dinner for the family on Tuesday and Thursday this week while I was having a break... Because it hurt me to watch them eat out all the time...

For the past two weeks, I thanked my MIL for helping to prepare porridge or noodles for them on every MWF. I hope this will go on... So the kids eat more of home cooked food.

This week, I held the hands of my kids at the dinner table and guides them to show our gratitudes...

"Thank you for giving us food... And thank you for letting us have the time to enjoy a meal together."

We did not twice so far... And this morning, I did a simple one over our breakfast at KFC... Wayne sitting opposite me startes to hold his palms together to pray at me... LOL!!!

I'm not relating it to any religion. The whole idea is remind ourselves every now and then to be appreciative. Also, to be very generous with saying "I love you" to our family... And not to be afraid to admit to our mistakes by apologizing when we did wrong... "Sorry". Don't be shy to say "Thank you" to strangers who rendered the simplest help. It begins from our hearts... And start with each individual.

This is just the baby step... There's more things in life that takes plenty of Courages and determination to be fulfilled but we'll take one step at a time...

It's never too late to start and transformation in yourself. As long as I take my very own first step... I'm one step less further from my goal.

CNY One Set Settled!

Finally settled the CNY clothes for the girls...

Little Wayne received so many clothes on his birthday so we didn't want to buy any for him this year. Daddy wants to get him the spiderman shoes though... Hahaha!

Glad that we headed to the United Square to shop for dresses. So many shops for kids that we didn't even manage to visit all of them...

We sort of settled with two dresses and shoes for the girls by the time we visited the 4th or 5th boutique... Just so overwhelming...

We also bought two hoodies for the girls since they had outgrown their old ones...

Daddy had a 'great' time waving his cards for all these purchases... Whahaha! Thanks, papa!

We returned home to carry out the Marie Kondo style wardrobe spring cleaning for the girls... Turned out they sparked too much joy too easily... So nothing much got out of it... I wouldn't want to interfere too much as I totally respect their innocent love for their belongings.

That's fine. As long as they packed their own clothes and had some form of realization on the amount of fashion they owned... That explained why we only bought 1 set of new clothes this year.

温馨提醒：不是什么都要喜欢就买的。

懂得知足常乐的美德，可以传承才是作为父母能给予孩子们最好的人生价值观。

触景伤情

星期五，晚上。。。

我目睹两个我深爱的人，无心伤害。。。

勾起了我的童年阴影。。。

我真的很难过；哭着入眠。

心想：为什么我没办法避免这场无心之过？

很沮丧，很窝囊。。。

只能尽力在事后做出最微量的弥补。。。

至少我的童年那场可怕的经历；没有得到任何人的安慰。。。

琦，妈妈对不起你。不该让你受到这样的惊吓。希望你的小小心灵能感受得到妈妈满满的爱。不要像我一样留下不必要的阴影和永不磨灭的伤痕。。。

有些事，不是不提就等于忘记了。。。

有些人，不是原谅了就会放下的。。。

宝贝，你这些天的心情，妈妈最清楚。是难过的。。。 是被否定的。。。 是被伤害的。所以那晚妈妈抱着你对你说的话，希望你能明白。

爱你。。。满满。满满！你要勇敢。

我的第二刀

My second op... To remove a two year "resident" over my left shoulder.

This giant pimple look alike lump couldn't be removed by pimple cream but only through formal surgical procedural when I was put on a table like bed, shone by thousand watts mega LEDs... Pricked by needle until I couldn't feel the pain (at the shoulder area only) anymore...

Days before the op, I felt unusually at ease... too nonchalant that my Lulu decided to disturb my inner peace.

He said "Don't be scared... Don't be scared!"

"I'm not scared...", I responded almost immediately.

He continued with a grin, "I'm not talking to you. It's the nurse talking to the surgeon."

@#$^^&*^$#

His nonsence didn't stop there... While waiting for the op, he continued his Don't be scared scare...

He said to me, "When u are pushed inside to the op theatre, the surgeon will say Don't be scared."

The naive me who always fall for his tricks, "Oh really? They said that to you the last time?"

He gave that same grin and completed his disturbing nonsense, "No... The surgeon is not talking to u. He's telling himself not to be scared."

@#$^^&*^$#

I lost consciousness during my first opp which was full body anesthesia the moment they stuffed the tubes into my windpipe.

This time was just LA, I was conscious throughout the preocedure even thought I could not feel the pain of cuts and drills, my aging ears were working just fine...

The moment the young surgeon saw me being prep for the procedure. He tapped my arm gently and said, "Don't be scared..."

The little calmness in me was suddenly stirred because the first thing I could linked was to Lulu's lame jokes...

During the procedure, I overheard the conversation of the two surgeons...

Surgeon 1, "What is this? Definitely more than a cyst..."

Surgeon 2, "Is that the shoulder joint?"

Surgeon 1, "Cannot be lah! Shoulder joint how can be here?"

Me @#$^^&*^$#

Surgeon 1, "You want to make it (the incision) bigger? Go ahead... Make it bigger!"

Then I felt like I was being sawed...

Surgeon 1, "Okay, that's the cyst wall...Okay, definitely the cyst wall."

After stitching and applying pressure pad to the bandage over my left shoulder, surgeon 1 told me, "Okay, it's out! Its done. We tried to make it (the incision) very small only."

That's pretty much the experience of my 第二刀... On the "funny" side...

Thank you, Lulu, for staying by my side all the six times when I was lying on the hospital bed. All your love has touched me deeply, since 19 years ago... and definitely more in coming years just not in hospital bed anymore...Thank you! 😘